I am having a very rough moment right now so feel free to ignore my vent. Nathan won't take a nap for the second day in a row, Emily is constantly wanting to be held, Jon is working 16 hour days. I just can't do it all anymore. I am not Superwoman. I have so much on my plate between two kids, maintaining the house, being primary president (and trying to prepare for a program that is just 3 Sundays away and sill not completely written), being membership vice president of the MOMS Club, and being in the Michigan Concert Choir that it has finally taken it's toll on me and I can't do it anymore.
Even just typing that little bit has seemed to just taken the weight of the world off my shoulders.
And WHY on earth do baby swings have 6 speeds when all my kids seem to like is the fastest setting????? I just put Emily in the swing to type this knowing that she hates the swing when I remembered that Nathan hated it too unless it was on the fastest setting so I just turned up the speed and Emily is so calm and almost asleep.
UPDATE- Right after typing this I made the decision that I could no longer do choir. I think that really was my breaking point. I wasn't enjoying it anymore because it was more of a hassle than it was worth. I also have come down with a nasty cold (all stuffed up, sore throat, headaches [achy all over really], cold and hot spells, but no fever [thank goodness]) so I am sure that has aided my feelings of inadequacy. Thanks for all your words on encouragement. Nathan is now napping again, and in a couple weeks I will be shipping him off to preschool 2 mornings a week . It will be good for him to have time to be active with other little toddlers and it will give me time to focus on Emily and get the things done that I need to do.
8 years ago